Must watch movies!

• Schindler's list
• The Shawshank Redemption
•  The lives of others.
•  The usual suspects
• Reservoir dogs
• Pulp fiction
• Inglorious basterds
• Into the wild
• Oldboy
• The good,bad and the ugly
• Der untergang
• Wild Strawberries
• The silence
• Autumn Sonata
• 12 angry men
• Amores Perros
• Y tu mama tambien
• Flashbacks of a fool
• Empire of the sun (beautiful score)
• The life of David Gale
• The Departed
• Dark knight
• LOTR trilogy
• Memento
• Saving Private Ryan
• Snatch
• Mystic River
• Crash
• Good will Hunting
• Donnie Brasco
• Glengarry Glen Ross (always be closing:P)
• Million dollar baby

Relief!

I finally got placed yesterday! IBM-GBS now. It's a great feeling having the security of a job, especially when there's added pressure on you when all your friends have gotten jobs. There's always the fear of the unknown. A slight probability of not getting placed at all, that, no matter how unlikely, never fails to worry you. You begin thinking of the realm of possibilities, examining your threshold levels like i mentioned in my previous post.
So I had to get placed and get it done with. One job policy or not!
I was low on confidence before the written round. I have no explanations why though:). I just told myself that i'd give it my best shot and leave the rest to god. So there i was, marking answers with a pounding heart still reminding me that things can still go wrong. But i guess it wasn't to be.

At about 2.30, results were announced and i was through to G.D. I breezed through that as all i had to do was speak, and apparently, all my points were valid. All the students in our panel were shortlisted for tech/hr round. But the wait was killing. I was the last to be interviewed! Horrible thing only.

The interviewer was a student of Mysore itself! Sometimes you just know that nothing can go wrong. It was one of those feelings. He asked for my resume and started asking questions about myself, what makes me unique and why IBM should hire me, the likes!

I made sure he asked me a bare minimum of C, but I made sure I came across as an 'efficient' coder:P

Sometimes, you just know things are meant to happen and there's always God's way. So i called my 'placed' friends up and told them to ready themselves for a boys night out. Finally at about 7.15, the results were announced and my name was called towards the end.

I'd say that was and is going to be a crucial moment in my life, for i was sure then that I had found my 'holding' ground, or what I'd like to call the grey between black and white.:P

I knew then that Management was the right path for me, and the supporting cause for the same was how my communication skills never failed me that day. I just knew that this is what i'm good for.

My friends met up for a brief dinner and the customary drinking( celebration drinks if you may). We drank to our future, our friendship, and most importantly, to this great journey of life. We then headed to a place called sagar katte, which is a kind of a hamlet with a river/lake on either side.(near krs reservoir) In the distance was a railway station too! A beautiful place to have some beer. The passing train at 3 in the night looked like a chain of lights. The night sky was so clear, and i've never seen so many stars in the sky, in my entire life!

Perhaps this was symbolic of how far we can actually progress in life, and the realm of possibilities that now actually seemed possible! It was also symbolic of how, in a few months time, we'd all probably be headed our own ways, building our respective careers. But now, I'm ready for all that!

Kerala was quite a release, but reality set in only after I got back. T.C.S had the first slot this time around, today! I decided not to write, because of the whole bond thingy and uncertainty as to when i will actually get a call if selected. The problem this time around is the college is following a 'one job' policy. So once you're placed, kaput. End of story! Be it mass, core or dream. Now the problem is- How good am i? I have no way of knowing whether I should wait for the real good core ones, or finish the entire process with an infy or a wipro. On one hand, there's the tension release If i get placed real soon, but then I won't have the satisfaction of knowing whether my efforts could have been put elsewhere.
I've no way of knowing whether i'm really good enough. I'm closely examining my threshold levels, with respect to how long i can go without a job, and stuff like that. And i'm flabbergasted when it comes to the role 'luck' plays in this process. Where's hope when you most need it? The tiniest shred will do.

done and dusted

I'm finally done with my darned exams. It was especially hard getting through new years' with my ass heating up the chair I was rooted too. I could hear people screaming, wishing other with some volume to it. There i was, sitting in nothingness and reading crap. A million odd people witnessed the fireworks at the Sydney Harbour Bridge, and God knows how many People'd be boozing into the night, making Pointless resolutions and what not. But that's life I guess. I'm glad it's bleddy over.

One month of hell done and dusted.

Here's the list of useless papers I wrote-

15/12/09- Computer Networks: which kind of went well, but about midway through the exam, the 'networks' constituting my mind were getting jammed

17/12/09- Optical Fibre Communication: I sure did 'shine' some light on this paper:) I can't believe a spell check would show 'fibre' spelt wrong. Why only American spellings

19/12/09- Power Electronics: I sure had the 'power' in me to kick ass that day. In other terms, jujubi.

22/12/09- D.S.P algorithms and architecture: Fuck all shit, so i'd be lucky to pass.

29/12/09- Real Time systems: You'd think one week's good enough for preparation, but no. Very abstract subject, and i had a very hard time answering in 'real time'

02/01/10- Operating Systems: The New beckoned with it the 'aura' that was today's paper. Blah Blah. I'm glad it's over. FUCK YOU V.T.U. Sadists.

p:s- I'm off to kerala tomorrow, with no material possessions in hand. I will seek some solace there.

Btw Happy new years! Be realistic and don't keep any resolutions.